April 28th was a day that changed many people's lives. A good man lost his life, a family lost their loved one, and a group of fine pilots lost a colleague. After the accident there was an investigation-- a standard practice done by the US Army. We were reassured by everyone that we had nothing to worry about because Rob had absolutely no part in what happened. There was even a high ranked military member that gave us his word that he would fight for us if for any reason something would go wrong. The accident was a harsh reminder to us how valuable our time is together, so we picked up our lives and started enjoying the summer together with the peace of mind that everything was going to be okay.
Our lives have always been disrupted with deployments, school, work, etc. So for the first time in the 6 years of our relationship we were enjoying uninterrupted, quality family time. Life was wonderful, we had our future planned out and we were so happy. If you know us well, then you know that we started out with absolutely nothing and have worked so incredibly hard to get where we are today.
Nothing could have prepared us for the news that Rob received on the 15th of June. Despite the US Army's report completely clearing Rob of any responsibility in the accident, one man decided that none of the pilots flying that day would be welcome back at Ft. Rucker.
I'm going to quickly sum up the past two months in one word: HELL
I can't tell you how many tears have been shed, how much anger has been built up, and how the stress of this one man's decision is seemingly forever looming above our heads. I would really like to share more details about the past 2 months with all of you, because I know how much you all care, but I can't right now. You see, I've never been good about keeping my mouth shut, and right now I have many things I would like to say about many people, but I must think of any possibly repercussions my words might have. Plus, I have learned that it is never a good thing to emotionally write, which is probably why it took me so long to post here. However, there will be a day (someday probably very far away) when I will expose the truth. Nobody deserves to go through this, or be treated like we have been.
What I can share with you, is where (in the world) we are now. We were given a short period of time to make a plan before Rob had to return to Holland. For many reasons it was almost impossible to move our whole family back to Holland. On the 2nd of August we all boarded a plane to Holland to move Rob back there. Thankfully a gracious friend has allowed Rob to live in his apartment for the time being, and he is now trying to arrange a million things while sitting at an excusemyfrench shitty office job. His green card has been applied for, and hopefully he will be able to return in February of next year to look for work.
In the meantime I am still here in Alabama. Thanks to a very kind family member the boys are able to continue going to school, which means I am able to finish my degree (only 2 more semesters after this! woo hoo!) We've been back in the States for a week now, and all three of us started school this week.
Life is challenging at the moment. We both have faith that we have made the right decision, but the future holds many uncertainties. If you pray, please pray for strength, a quick decision for his green card, and a good job offer in a few months. If you don't pray, please rub your Buddha bellies, light your candles, or just send some positive energy this way. I know I have been bad at responding to e-mails and facebook messages lately, but all of the comforting messages mean so much to both of us.
Life is unfair, a lesson that I learned from a young age. I am trying to be positive and strong right now, and I just want to take a second to let the whole world know how lucky I am to have such an amazing husband. Even though he has been down, he has never given up. He is not only an amazing husband, but an awesome Papa as well. Babe, words can't describe how much we miss you. I am honored to be your wife and can't wait to celebrate 4 fabulous years of marriage next week :) Now just hurry home so we can make another one of these:
Again, a special thank you to all of you that have shown your support over the past few weeks. Now that I've gotten this post out of the way, I'm going to try and keep this blog updated weekly from here on out!
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